What am I doing?

Ok, so I have been doing the Bible study, Breaking Free, and Lord, I find so many things God wants to change in me.  I feel a huge fight going on between the devil and my Lord for my will.  God says "DO THIS!"  But my flesh says "ugh......I don't want to!!!!"  It has been unbelievably hard!!!  There is one issue that I really need to take care of with another person, but I'm sure that person (who is a wishywashy friend anyway) will think I am nutso.  She will probably gloat over my admission, and ugh!!!  I just DON"T want to!!  So I am in my prayer closet every day urgently finding out what the Lord wants me to say......and He said, "It doesn't matter what she does, or what she thinks, or how she acts.  What matters is I said do it, and you must do it.  This isn't about her, it's about your relationship with me and where I want to take you, and how I'm going to use you and this for MY glory."  So, OK, Lord, here I go........